All Heels And Holly

And the COWARD goes to....

2010-06-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

If there's really an award for that, I think a lot of people would be fighting for it. Especially those who thinks they are smart ass but honestly, they just are an ass.

I know I'm supposed to appreciate all the comments given by any viewer even how insulting or how stupid it sounds. Why thank you, that is why no matter how ridiculous the comments are, I never failed to publish them except the ones which are utterly rubbish.

The thing about being an anonymous, you get to comment (or in this case insult) as you wish without revealing your true identity so as to avoid any direct acknowledgement from the people you insult. Well, that is why you are a coward. And if you are telling me that it is your choice in the first place, and that in this free country you are given the opportunity to make a choice, so then it is my choice to tell you that you are a coward and that if you are a guy, your weenie is a size of a cigarette and that if you are a girl I pity your parents for not wishing you have the balls to begin with.

I don't know how my statuses on mocking men's attitude and attribute had made me a desperate person.As I read them back I just couldn't help but feeling desperate (yes this is the right context to use it) as to know what exactly do you mean by it. I mean common sense, that word carries several meanings.

For example, the word desperate can be used when a person is having an urgent need, desire, etc. in which this case none of my statuses had stated that I urgently need a man in my life. Ergo, I'm not desperate.

Also, desperate can be used to describe a person who is being extreme and excessive. Well most of my statuses are from the site I posted (incessantly) on my fb links. So if I'm being extreme to you, then maybe you shouldn't add me in fb?

The word desperate also describe a person as having no hope or giving in to despair. I highly doubt I've no hope in this world. I think I have higher chances in scoring a hottie than you do. And I certainly don't give in to being sad and pathetic.I guess you don't know me that well.

Although you think I've no idea who you are, you're wrong. I know you read my blog. I know you read my fb statuses. And I also know that you're a coward.

If you don't like what you see, go vent it out on your blog or your fb statuses. Perhaps no one cared that's why you have to let me have it? Kesiann....

Anyways, peace.Assface.

Hye!

2010-06-17T20:08:00.000+08:00

Crazy as it seems, I'm actually happier and contend. ;)

p/s: I think I'm too trustful, well that's about to change.

Hello,I'm Hayati and I'm a lady..

2010-04-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

When a girl talks about her feelings, she blushes, stammer, and only talks about what's good.

When a woman talks about her feelings, she is quite, careful, thinks both the negative and positive consequences that might derived from it.

When a girl argues, she gives in, bluster and fights.

When a woman argues, she will speak up or compromise; listen and apologise.

When a girl walks, she will flaunt her beauty for other men to see.

When a woman walks, other women will turn around and pay attention to her.

When a girl wants to be in a relationship, she looks for the cutest guy she could get.

When a woman wants to be in a relationship, she looks for the smartest guy she could find.

A girl cares only about her looks.

A woman cares about her inner strength; her emotions and her love for others.

My name is Nurhayati Ghazali

and I'm ready to become a woman.

Cravings..

2010-04-01T13:34:00.000+08:00

IS IN NEED TO WATCH MOVIES....

Beginning with...

Then....

And lastly and most anticipated...

Owh yeaaah...

sigh ;(

Can't Let Go of You..

2010-03-29T14:49:00.002+08:00

Lyrics to Can't Let Go :
Well youre the closest thing I have
To bring up in a conversation
About a love that didnt last
But I could never call you mine
Cause I could never call myself yours
And if we were really meant to be
Well then we justify destiny
Its not that our love died
Just never really bloomed

Well I cant let go
No, I cant let go of you
Youre holding me back without even trying to.
I cant let go
I cant move on from the past
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

And then we saw our paths diverge
And I guess I felt OK about it.
Until you got with another man,
And then I couldnt understand
Why it bothered me so.
How we didnt die we just
Never had a chance to grow.

I cant let go
No, I cant let go of you
Youre holding me back without even trying to.
I cant let go
I cant move on from the past.
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

And it might not make much sense
To you or any of my friends
Though somehow still you affect the
Things I do.
And you cant lose what you never had
I dont understand why I feel sad
Every time I see you out with someone new.

I cant let go
No, I cant let go
No, I cant let go of you.

I cant let go
No, I cant let go of you
Youre holding me back without even trying to.
I cant let go
I cant move on from the past
Without lifting a finger youre holding me back.

I cant let go
No, I cant let go of you
Youre holding me back without even trying to.
I cant let go
I cant move on from the past
[ Can't Let Go Lyrics on

Dear Ex

2010-03-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

I may put a strong face.

But you know how I truly feel.

Let's do some hair ya'all!

2010-03-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

Can't decide between...

Chapped volumed fringe and messy layered curly hair

Or....

Full volumed big curls hair like this.

Double sigh... ;(

2010-03-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

Needs to be hold

Hope this lifts up your spirit!!!

2010-03-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

2010-03-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

I cried the moment I entered my house. For that shall be the last time we'll meet until time and fate decide our course of life.

I love you. I know you that.

The Dark Lover

2010-03-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

Kekasih Gelapku by Ungu

This song made me cry. I didn't realize how hurt I am until I heard this song. I didn't like the ending. Made me feel as though I'll be just like that guy. A pathetic loser who only gets to hug the person I love the most and seeing that person leaves with somebody he's always been with.

Although he told me he wasn't happy with her. And he seek me for happiness.

But who am I to him?

Am I really loved by him?

I just want to cry. This love business, it's never my thing. I hate getting hurt. That's why I always hurt people.

Maybe the table's turn and this time my heart will break.

I just don't want to be that loser.

I don't want to be the dark lover.

Why can't I be happy?

KISS

2010-02-27T20:11:00.000+08:00

The perfect kiss is when...

You wait a moment before it happen..make the other partner goes crazy wanting to be kissed.

You teased as you planted kisses everywhere decent but the lips.

As your partner pulls you desperately, you give a soft kiss on the lips..Then several soft kisses.

And as you hold your partner tighter, the kisses grew stronger.

Your heart felt like it was going to explode.

But the kisses only grew stronger and stronger.

And when you let go, you only want more.

Especially when your eyes met and that moment felt perfect.

Then it is the perfect kiss.

I am a happy girl ;)

You....

2010-02-25T23:55:00.002+08:00

I.

MISS.

YOU.

;(

ATTENTION~~!!!!!!!

2010-02-21T11:32:00.001+08:00

Pics dicilok dr Aisyah's

Please to introduce..This is my bestfriend in the whole wide world..She has a destructive laugh just like mine..Loves fashion and always obsessed with her weight when she doesn't have to...Always putting on make up on her flawless skin..She's so wonderful she even have this wonderful Bie of her..:) She's my favourite among others..I love her so much and Misses her too!

A note to Miss Aisyah..Oi! Comment balik kat blog aku nih!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (^0^)//

You....

2010-02-20T15:37:00.002+08:00

"Clearing my purse from other cards and put yours in that special section. I have only one card now, and that card has your picture on it"

Mamu Machaaaaa!!! :P

2010-02-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

It was so funny I had to start this post with a laugh! Mamu (my best guy in the whole wide world) came from Shah Alam to visit me in Melaka. We haven't met in such a long time and we missed each other so very much! I used to come down to Shah Alam often for debate tournaments but since I'm no longer in the team, I could hardly ever go to Shah Alam without any purpose ;P

So he decided to come down, spend the night, hang out at all the places I love going in Melaka, dine at all the restaurants I love to eat!, and have a heart to heart conversation that we always have...

But.......his car broke down! He missed the bus, had to buy a new tix, and couldn't stay for the night :(

I blame the stupid taxi driver for driving him to God knows where before sending him to me! And we only left with an hour to spend time together.. :(

Anyways..the best part when he's right in front of me and I get to hug him and we cycle with my fav cyclist to Jonker! It was filled with people (Oh come on it's only Thursday!) and went straight to Geographer Cafe..

He had fun cycling that much I can tell.. haha!

We ate like a lot! The Tandoori was super delicious although I have to apologies coz I didn't get to snap the food pictures as we were all ravenous! haha!

And again he missed his bus back to Shah Alam!Haha! So he had to buy a new tix to KL and I figure I should accompany him in Melaka Sentral. And there we had that small talk and I felt relieved because of all the people I know, he's one that's truly understanding...sigh :)

Here's the pictures from his visit! Love you Mamu!!!!!!!!! :D

Come again soon! :)

Valentine's Day...

2010-02-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

I hope I'm not too late to wish those in love a Happy Valentine as love is spread around the world nevertheless..

This year, I am without a Valentine..which is not really a surprise considering I've never celebrated it..and the 1st and only rose I've ever received was on my 22nd birthday..which was beautiful nonetheless.. :)

I just wish that one day, I'll be staring into the night sky, counting stars while in your arms, breathing your scent, and feel like I'm floating...

Anyways...

Watched Valentine's Day with my fav cyclist..Totally looove the movie..I think I'm starting to dig romantic comedy..Although you might think this one is as typical as any other boy meets girl boy falls in love with girl kinda movie, well, it's not!

For one, this movie emphasis on how important friendship is in a relationship..We need to create an understanding, a bond between two souls, hence the relationship will lasts forever.. There's a line in the movie that touches my very soul..

"When you love someone, you have to love all of them, that's your job. You can't just love the good things about me, you have to love the bad things too!"

And my favourite couple in the story...

Two bestfriends finding love to no avail until they find love in each other... :)

Boiled Mee (LOL), Orchid, Ulam Raja, Stulang Beach and loved ones..

2010-02-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

Haven’t been home (JB!) in almost a month since practicum starts..It does sucks the life out of you this practicum but I really need to pass it.. ;( Only now do I understand the true meaning of Home Sweet Home as home was really sweet and I felt the warmth as soon as I entered the house. Mom was amazing as always. Her garden grew bigger!! The Ulam Raja looked super delicious I just had to pluck it for every meal! Heheee! Mom says the benefit of eating Ulam Raja is that it’ll make you looks younger and healthier. I do want to look younger...heee..And mom’s orchid bloomed! Beautiful purple color! Mom knows how much I love purple this year..Eheee! ;)

Purple Orchid

Ulam Raja

The first night I got home she made this super delicious fish curry and that only made me sat on the dining table licking the curry off my fingers and thanking her for the wonderful meal she cooked that night. I love you Mak! And oh! That’s only the beginning, the next day, we went to my bestfriend’s wedding and oh my she’s so beautiful and when I looked at her I can’t help but having glimpses of what my wedding would be and I realised how much I really want to settle down and be loved. Problem is, no guy I know wants that with me. ;(

Nazya and my family :)

Next morning we went out for breakfast, looking at Abah and his polished car he looks so adorable!hahaha! Went out to Zainal’s (dang it’s now a half an hour ride to get there when before this we only took 5 minutes!) and had Mee Rebus! Yumyum! It serves the best Mee Rebus ever and even Jalan-Jalan Cari Makan once reviewed the restaurant. I had a full breakfast and had a great time with my family.. I love you family.. :’)

All the glorious food.. ;')

After breakfast (felt so full my tummy bloated!hee!) we went to Stulang Beach. Abah loooves fishing but since he didn’t bring his gadgets we ended up staring at people fishing at the beach.

I miss you family..How I wish I could still be with you.. sobs!

MY FAMILY.... <3

This little kid is amazing! He knows how to fish! Although his fishing thread broke first time he fish, he came back with higher spirit and caught some delish looking fishes! :D

Down the Aisle she went

2010-02-20T13:54:00.003+08:00

You are so beautiful

As you hold my hand and our friendship blooms

Your laughter and tears and mine combined

We strut like how bestfriends would

The friend you introduced to me stays in my heart and never leaves

But our hands are apart

I miss the softness

He’s having you in his arms

And I see that beautiful smile of yours

I know now as you know then

That our friendship is pure

Although you can’t be around me much anymore

But our love and care for each other will make up to it

Congratulations on your wedding dear

I’ll pray for your happiness

Know I’m always here

As I’ve always been

;')

Nazya and her hubby Ezuddin..So good together.. :)

Stone Sizzling Volcano Rock!

2010-02-20T13:33:00.003+08:00

Tired of the normal hotplate? Or tired of chefs overdoing your “well done” and “medium rare”?

Now you get to burn your own meat! Heheee!! I can’t guarantee fat burning though! :P

Grilled Black Pepper Chicken with Fried Rice, Corn and Black Pepper Sauce RM13++

So cheap right? ;)

Please to introduce the owner of Sizzling Stonegrill! He made us felt welcome with his bright smile and alluring personality. Kitty and I immediately fell in love with him and his restaurant!Tehee!! And the most amazing part is Sizzling Stonegrill has a francias in JB City Square that I've always stare but never dare to enter! Cause I thought its expensive but its not! Superb interior makes you feel like you're in a Fairy Tale according to Kitty.hee! :D

The new Jusco Melaka (right besides TESCO) just opened and it was pretty exciting to go there on the first day of opening! Free parking up till March and beautiful interior! I mean seriously you get to actually see big ass size of boxes and hearts! :P

Although on the down side, this Jusco doesn’t have many international brands like other Juscos especially the ones in Johor. Those are superb I can’t even begin to describe its “superbness”. LOL

So me and Kitty went in and did some shopping!!!Amazing as I bought a new set of blouse and high waist skirt. :D

And...the most amazing part is, I got on STAGE!!!!!!!!!!!No no not the stage literally per say, but the makeup brand STAGE!.heheee :D

They are extremely beautiful, simple in presentation (dark and elegant!), and quite cheap! It’s a Malaysian brand but with items spreading from France to Switzerland. And I’m not kidding you when I say it’s really worth it! It suits me well and I looove it!!!

What I bought (Don't slap me! :P):

Stage Wonderbalm Lip Care (Red Color Case): Soft and smoother lips after application.No kidding!

Stage Wonderluxe Lipstick Precocious Plum (Matte): Gives a light pink finishes and plummer kissable lips! ;)

Stage Wondergloss Lipstick Narcissus: Shiny and strawberry taste!

Stage Eyeshadow Mono Bahamas: Metallic Black with chocolate touch! Purrrtyy!! ;)

What I get for free!! (Bite me! ;P):

Stage purrrtyy Bow Make up Pouch Purple Colour! (My favorite color of the year) ;)

Stage Lash Defining Mascara Waterproof: Enhances your lashes really well and best part, you don't get that lumpy leftovers on your eyelashes unlike certain other brands!

Stage Wonderlust Lipstick Kristen: Fine metallic orangy finish and taste like Choc!Yum yum! ;)

Stage Nail Color Majestic: Thick, metallic purple finish but you need to be an expert to apply it because of its thick texture.My advice, buy the nail color gloss to make the surface of your nail smoother for nail color application. :)

Don't hate me as I Love Everything I have! ;)

Touche~

2010-02-10T18:46:00.001+08:00

Maybe the reason why God made you meet someone who's the exact replica of your current mistake is because He wants you to have second go at LOVE, because maybe she's the right one, but just not the right one for you

The same goes to me, hence it made want to correct what is wrong with me and improve what is good about me..

Don't you feel the same way too?

What is Love?

2010-02-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

I could feel what you're feeling because we're basically feeling the same way

Seeing love in almost EVERYTHING

Being alone seems like the darkest thing to do

And being TOGETHER seems like the only solution

Love...ah...how I miss that feeling...

You....

2010-02-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

"The more I tried pushing you away, the closer you get to me, the harder my heart beats for you and the stronger my body ache for your touch"

But I don't want to be your rebound..Can we please think about this?

Paint

2010-02-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

It's not much..but I really hope you'll like it

Ah well, who m I kidding? A 5 year old can do better! Sigh

Sir..

2010-01-31T13:24:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry I've said bad things about you when I'm angry towards you..

I'm sorry I couldn't come up to your expectations of me..

I'm sorry I didn't tell you it's ok that you make me join mpp and it turns my life upside down..

I'm sorry you have to go this early..

I'm sorry because I'm going to miss you dearly..

I'm sorry I don't want J to be our coordinator..can you please do something bout that?

We love you sir!

The Tree

2010-01-31T03:33:00.002+08:00

What do you do to a tree that you have planted since you were young and now it's all grown up but is making your lawn looks awful?

You take care of it.

Goodnight

Seoul Garden & Marina Beach Melaka!

2010-01-31T02:08:00.001+08:00

If you're craving for barbecue meal and steamboat then Seoul Garden is your place! Quite affordable and oh, it's under the same company as my favourite Breeks!..So that explains why the food is just so good! :)

That's me!I just love poking the food with my chopstick.teheee!!! :P

Then after lunch we travel to Marina Beach near Eye on Malaysia Melaka! Nice scenery and you can play kites there. Brings back good ol' memories during childhood ;)

Somehow I like this picture..no reason though! :)

This one's the winner! ;P

p/s: How I've missed you so much and I hope you like my pictures, love! :*

TO YOU...

2010-01-31T01:38:00.002+08:00

THE WAY YOU SAY MY NAME MAKES ME FEEL SO SPECIAL

THE WAY WE TALK FOR HOURS AND STILL WANT TO LISTEN TO EACH OTHER

THE WAY YOU SAY I’M PRETTY AND I BELIEVE YOU

THE WAY MY HEART BEATS FRANTICALLY WHEN I DIDN’T HEAR FROM YOU EVEN FOR AN HOUR

THE WAY YOU SAY YOU MISS ME + 1 TO SHOW THAT YOU’RE MISSING ME MORE THAN I DO

YOU MAKE ME YEARN FOR YOU

FOR I LIKE YOU + 2!

Current Obsessions :)

2010-01-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

YSL Parisienne.

Parisienne means a female native or resident of Paris..which I dream of being.. :)

It smells amazingly fresh yet sweet..wonderful combination for those who admire the smell of Boss La Femme.

And this, Skin Food's Egg White Pack; good for those who has black heads and white heads issue like moi.. And Skin Food's Cucumber Soothing Mask helps sooth the skin after the forceful peeling of the pack :)

So maybe you lovely readers could go and try out both products..they are worth it! :)

Kitty Cat and YSL

2010-01-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

Went out to with Kitty to Perfume Avenue and Skin Food in DP..

Ladies Mall Floral Top, Zdori Panty Socks, MING Sling Bag, Ribbon Belt, Vincci/Nose Accessories, SUMMIT Peep Toes

Anyways...please meet these two awesome person

Meet Desmund, he's the guy to see if you ever consider of buying new perfume. He knows every smell and best of all, he's not the kind of salesperson who would suggest you to buy the expensive stuff without giving your personality a thought. I mean seriously, this guy knows what perfume to choose for you! :)

And this is Jo. She's from Johor just like moi! :) And she's the best salesperson for Skin Food. Ask her anything and she'll give you sufficient answers for any of your skin problems. I'm falling in love with Skin Food.. :D

I'll show you what I've bought on the next post k?

He foots the bill :)

2010-01-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

Out with My Favourite Cyclist to Breeks!

Sunflower Long T, MING Brown Cardi, McQueen Bleached Jeans, SUMMIT Heels

I had Baked Seafood..yumyum..But warning, those who can't handle too much cheese, this is not your choice.

p/s: If Breeks has membership cards, I'd be the first to apply! :D

KHS Alite 3000

2010-01-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

It runs like the wind..

Weighs like a feather...

Looks like a tough brown horse..

Introducing...

My Favorite Cyclist's baby...

hehe!! Of coz it's me! But the fun between his leg really is....

This brown horse!! (But of course the seat is much higher that what you see in this picture,

the truth is I'm a small girl and to find a bike that suits me well is so difficult!

But this one's a winner! :) )

And he's also renting out bicycles..RM10 per day for normal bikes, RM25 per day for MTB! Ain't that cheap? For those interested you can just get through to me and I'll let him know..

Best part is, if you're around Malacca but you're not sure where's the best place to go cycling, he and his friend can help show you around! For Free of course! There's even an off road trip every Wednesday..but only the tough can get through.. LOL

Toodles lovely readers.. :)

Quickie :P

2010-01-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

Sequined top from Ladies Mall, RM20 handbag,

Black Leggings, SUMMIT Peep Toe

I may not possess the looks of a model, but Allah gave me a look that only I can carry ;)

The pic was taken at the A Famosa Fort; a lovely place to visit if you're happen to be in Malacca..

Have a great Monday lovely readers..sleep tite! :)

TORTURA II

2010-01-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

Back in the medieval days, pains were inflicted in others through the form of torture. Although many historians believed that torture were only used to interrogate prisoners of crimes but the truth is, upon looking at the tools used, they did it for pleasure and the kick they get out of it.

Even back in the middle age, labels or known as the Badge of Shame later in life, were made, burned and sealed on the shoulder blade of the convict. Labels such as Fraymaker, Perjurer, Blasphemy, Power of Sedition, Seditious Liberer, Rogue and many others, each, were burned on the convict’s body so he or she would never forget what they have done and are considered as the most sympathizing form of torture. Believe me, if Guillotines were quick and easy, there are a lot more which are not.

And I believe that the Nail Clipper came from the very original idea of the Nipple Clipper.

More to learn if you spend some of time venturing to the world of pain and torture in TORTURA II at the World Malay Islamic Museum in Bastion House next to A’Famosa Fort. Tix are sold at RM10 for adults and RM 5 for children. Extra charge for cameras and video recordings.

Interesting way to spend your Saturday! :)

Fashion Police on Leash!

2010-01-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

Although I very much appreciate what people would suggest on the things I wear (and sometimes they are intelligent!) but what makes it interesting is the fact that it's all me and I'm comfortable wearing it.
My wardrobe may not be as good as any of you out there but trust me I'm improving. And if you feel that what I'm wearing needs improvement, well thank you, I appreciate your thoughts, why not make a fashion blog of your own?

Like I've said, this blog is still in the process, and believe me for someone who doesn't enjoy writing this is a huge step for me. I do appreciate all the reviews (even bad ones, they make me frown n thought, wtf?) and please don't hesitate to leave some more. Because anything that you say, good or bad, I welcome them with a smile. :)

Till then readers..Hope Tuesday is a good day for everyone! :)

Out with My Favorite Cyclist

2010-01-10T18:16:00.004+08:00

I'm still in the process of learning how to take my own pictures as well as finding a good backdrop for it,but I hope what I have so far is still nice to look at :)

Sequin long singlet,MINGConcept sling bag,

MINGConcept brown cardi, SUMMIT strap heels (5 inch!)

Went to my favorite restaurant, The Breeks Cafe! (if you've noticed I wore a different shoe to this trip; Fabiano Ricco blue studded flats!)

And tonight's meal is.... Baked Dory Fish with Mushroom Sauce

and My Fav. Cyclist had Cajun Grilled Chicken Chop! Delish~

Hope to have some good reviews soon..The blog is just recently been open to public. Hope to have more followers! Btw, Have a great monday! :)

P/S/B ;)

2010-01-09T15:16:00.005+08:00

This is what I have been doing the past week;

Becoming a practical teacher at one of the prestigious school in Melaka (GBS yo!)

The school from in front; teachers there are very dedicated

to their work and the students are just adorable! :)

Received my scholarship from SLTP and spend some time buying things i didn't get to buy last year!

Something I bought in Jb, an unbranded lace dress (so Blair!), GEB belt,

unbranded shoes, and panty socks from Zdori

I loveeee this socks..from Zdori :)

Went for a delicious dinner at Breek's Cafe in Mahkota Parade, a must visit restaurant where the food is affordable and leave you bloated the whole night! (No kidding!)

Fish Paprika with pasta at Breek's Cafe. Costs only RM12++

Bought something nice for my Favorite Cyclist! (he loves it! Thank God!)

Updating my blog so it'll look nicer and people will actually read it.Hee...

See you soon readers!! :)

Practicum Blues…

2010-01-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

I’m sure by now a lot of TESLians are talking about their practicum. I’m supposed to be writing my journal but my handwriting is just so bad I refuse to read them myself.lol.

Well if you read my friend’s Zulfahmie’s blog, what he feels is basically the same as what I’m going through. We keep telling ourselves that things will eventually gets better, but I can’t help but feeling that the 30% from our mentor will be such a hard-ass work to get. I even did the scheme of work for her and instead of at least saying thank you, she pointed out all the mistakes I did. Sigh. Well I guess this is the price to pay for getting the discipline teacher as your mentor. *faints!

Honestly, I do enjoy my practicum because everytime the bell rings (which something both me and Fahmie look forward too) it’s time to go home, to meet the friends, the loved ones and the dogs in front of your house, just back to where you belong. And things seemed normal for awhile. Until you start to realize that you couldn’t feel your legs and your head is spinning so badly. *faints again

We had so much free time today I’ve done my lesson plans for next week.lol. I know. But it’s just about the only way to kill time. And we spend so much time talking to each other I’ve realized that Pamie is full of funny stories! And being a control freak that I am, he probably didn’t get as much chance to communicate with the teachers. But he’s getting the task of handling that snobbish teacher. Good luck Pamie! :D

I just wanna pass this thing. I just wanna be able to look back and smile or maybe laugh at all the memorable experiences I’m going to make. Hell, I’d probably miss this school when practicum’s over. LOL

I’ll be making some changes to the blog soon. It’s so lame I myself am bored looking at it! L

Good Luck Teacher Yatie! J

Ed Westwick

2009-11-26T22:52:00.001+08:00

This man makes me want to tear off his clothes and make love to him like

2000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times!

I love him

sigh

Hopeless Romantic

2009-11-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

I am...

Really...

Because...

Instead of all those designers handbags most girls crave for,I prefer a bouquet of pink roses..
yes,it's the truth

I adore a man who will pick me up in front of my house with flowers in his hands..no matter if its the 1st date of the 100th date

I cherish a man who opens doors for me..

Kiss me goodnight even in front of his friends..

Bring me to see his parents..no matter how conservative they might be..

Work hard for our future together..

Make love to me because he does love me and he's sure that it is right..

Think of me everytime he plans his future..

Make me every part of his life..

I'm hopelessly romantic..and I keep falling for the wrong guy..

To boo,

I do love you...

I don't mind if you didnt buy me flowers..

I didnt mind when you dont open doors for me..

I waited patiently as you focus on ur now interest and put aside ours..

I bleed inside as you make love to me because of lusts..

I keep quiet when I hear all my friends plans for their future with their love ones..

But I'm suffering..

If you can't be sure of us in the first place, you shouldn't destroy my life for me...

I just need a light..a relief..

From you..

I miss you

This is it

2009-11-07T19:27:00.002+08:00

I know who I am if that's what you're asking

I also the fact that I'm a distraction to you since you are always preoccupied with your studies.

But lemme tell you this, there is not one man in my life that is not preoccupied with other things and not me.

I'd understand if you're unable to make it through, that you think your life is so bad, dammit there is not once in your life that you think it's not bad, I really wanted to slap you and tell you to smell the fresh air but obviously, with your attitude you wouldn't even budge.

Maybe it's me being upset here, but look who's the cause

You've admit you put on your tough face and tough attitude, but tough luck, when you put too much of it people would genuinely think you emotionless. Putting your 'Do I look like I care' look maybe cute sometimes, but hye, too much of it will make anyone upset.

And to think you'll get away by pulling it on me.

How oblivious.

Baby listen to me,you always think it's about you but sometimes, you've gotta understand, the world does not revolves around you. Did you ask me how I am feeling? Did you wonder whether this things, this feelings scares me?Did you not ponder that maybe I'm just looking for the right moment, the right time, to tell you that I too want to be your side?

But I can't do that if I know you'll treat just as you treat others. That you can't commit to me. That you think the world only revolves around you.

So, darling, you want your love life to be better? Here's my advice, stop acting like an asshole cause of all people, you are not one.

But hye, this is it right, if we both can't agree on one thing, we just can't live under the same roof right?

So I hope you well, and I'm kinda relief of this revelation.

Hope you well

"t'was All Fun" Chapter 1

2009-09-02T22:26:00.003+08:00

~t'was All Fun~

Haley was walking down the pavement through the most beautiful beach she’s ever set eyes on. She could feel the warm fresh breeze on her vanilla white skin. She shivers at the thought of skinning dipping in the private lake further north of this majestic club beach which Anna had deliberately describe all the details on a little post-it she kindly left on Haley pearly white laptop. Haley shook the idea away, thinking it was so grotesque that none of Anna girly-girl friends would even succumb to the thoughts. But Anna has always seemed to know how to influence just about anybody she has ever met; she’d probably have the girls agreeing on it and already are halfway to the private lake.

Haley let out a little giggle as she thought of them naked with only their white engineered buttocks flashing above the surface of the lake. She scanned the whole area of the beach to find a nice place to set her blanket. She’d even dreamed about this beautiful beach. When they arrived, she has been so tired and damped from crying too much and she has been left alone in the suite for even more crying. Haley let out a deep sigh. If it weren’t for the breakup, she’d probably still be in her half a million apartment snugging comfortably in her boyfriend arms. The pathetic, selfish, inconsiderate bastard that has broke her heart and stomped in to the floor.

She shook her head. No, she thought, I shouldn’t be so worked up on this. Everybody has gone through this stage in their relationship one way or rather, but I won’t be the one being so upset about it when he’s having the time of his life. She stormed away quickly to get under a tree and was rationalizing herself again when she heard a voice that was quite familiar. Not just the voice, Haley thought, she’s practically yelling.

Afraid that Anna might be in deep trouble, Haley rush over to where the voices came from and noticed that her friends are confronting a group of blokes with only their shorts on. Wet shorts. Haley walks slowly towards the group. She didn’t want to interfere if her presence is not needed. Who knows Anna might actually be courting with the men. Hell, Anna basically knows all the rule of courting at the back of her hand and this is probably some secret courting skills she’s just found out about and is trying it on the men. But for real, Anna doesn’t look like she’s is trying to get the men’s attention so she could have them buying her drinks, she looks more like a snake protecting her eggs from poachers and Haley swear she’d saw Anna’s tongue hissing as she yell at the group of men.

As Haley walks closer she could hear their conversation; more like yelling clearer.

“We got here first ma’am, as we have told you before, the blankets are ours and we’ve got them sprung on the land right there where you stand before you blonds tossed them to the side.” The men sounded as if he’s gritting his teeth while he said them and manage a little polite smile.

Anna however rolled her eyes and places her hands on her hip looking exactly like their battered old spinster of a grammar teacher back at their high schools. Haley giggled to the thought of that but she quickly stop as she saw Anna was cursing away at the men.

“Oh fuck it,” Anna screamed. “Do you seriously think that when you flash that idiotic grin of yours we would just pick up our stuff, apologize and leave? If that’s what you think than you are all dumb asses because none of us girls are willing to walk away from the only shady place on the beach. It’s not our fault none of you dimwits are intelligent enough to safe keep this place and there are no rules saying you can keep a place if you put your battered blanket on it. Stupid!”

Haley covered her mouth with her hands, she almost burst out laughing but couldn’t muster the courage to do so. She’s been with Anna so long that she knew Anna liked the men she was yelling at. Anna Connoly would never call a man stupid unless she has a liking towards the man. And obviously this one is very likeable considering he has the most gorgeous looking biceps a girl could ever lay eyes on. Haley notices that Anna have one of her famous looks that says I’ve gotta get this man to bed right this instance and had probably would if she’s alone with the man. Haley snickered at that thought. Her best girl in the whole wide world, Anna, is probably the most gorgeous looking gal there is. Standing at 5 foot 8 she’s probably taller than any other girls in school and with a perfect curve given by God and her most trusting cosmetics doctors, Anna has no problem getting men. Hence why they are here in the first place, to add collections of sweet men in her list and to make Haley forgot about her dimwitted of a boyfriend.

“Look ma’am, all we ask from you is to just step aside and let us have our place back. If you want it that much than we dumb asses have no problem sharing.” The men continue smiling politely as his group of friends snickered and giggled at the thought of sharing the only shady place on the beach according to Anna with her groups of blondies. No kidding, they are all blonds and enjoying every moment of the attention given by the group of wet shorts men.

But knowing Anna, although Haley knew she’d loved the idea, still refuses to end the fight, Anna always love a good fight.

“Hell no! You think us gals would want to hang around with a bunch of goofy looking old men like you lot? Dream on! Stupid!” There’s the cue again and Haley couldn’t help but laugh. She quickly runs behind a beach chair abandoned by its owner so she wouldn’t get caught.

“What’s going on here?” Haley heard a warm, husky deep voice coming from the men’s side. She turned and saw a man, probably in his early thirties walking up to the group. From where she’s hiding, she could see him clearly. He was about 6 foot tall. Tanned, and his muscles contracted as he walks slowly towards the men. Her heart almost drop when stands high and mighty besides the man talking to Anna. And she swear she’d saw Anna lick her lips as she stares at the man.

“Why are you girls standing on our spot?” he continued in his husky deep voice. Salt water drips from his hair, landed on his chest down to his below. Haley couldn’t help but trace the little wet drips onto the line of his Hawaiian shorts and the man didn’t look funny in it. In fact he looked damn sizzling in those pants.

“They say it’s theirs cuz none of us dimwits know how to safe keep a place at the beach” the man Anna had a crush on quickly filled him on the details. The man just snickered when he heard the story.

“Serves you right Callie boy, have told you before and will havta tell you always, you’ve gotta safe keep a place like this on the beach” he turns towards Anna, “Sorry for the trouble misses, seems my men ain’t no brainer when it came to this” Haley swear she saw him winking his deep blue, no wait, green, Gosh it’s so hard to see from here Haley thought, she hadn’t seen much gorgeous men in her life like this one and her only chance is when she’s hiding behind a beach chair with some stinky old beach towel hanging on it.

But he’s not smart, Haley thought, he’s probably some football player or some athlete whose talents are only to score for the team and going 15km on a treadmill for 5 minutes. No sir, definitely not my type. But then the man she thought was her everything has left her crying at the doorway of her expensive apartment leaving her nothing but his dirty laundry in her bath.

Men!

“You’ve got that right,” she heard Anna say, “These idiot friend of yours even suggest that we share it.” Idiot? Haley thought, surely Anna isn’t changing her preferences now would she considering she’s now calling the guy an idiot instead of stupid.

“Did he now?” The husky deep voice again. “I bet you sluts loved the idea and willing to give us men some good old services. Some of me men have quite a big appetite and you trendy looking hookers might just do the job”

She felt her heart sink deep into her stomach. Did the tall dark husky voice men just called Anna and her friends, ‘sluts’?

“Did you call us sluts??” Anna had a head start on making the man clear. “Yes I did, and will call you girls whores and plenty other names ‘till you bitches decided to leave us men to our spot”

Anna’s eyes were filled with fury but before she could yelped and untie the other blonds’ leashes, Haley scrambled her way through the crowd and stand between the two crowd.

She’s now face to face with the most handsome man in the planet and their eyes transfixed on each other and Haley confirms his dark green eyes.

The man didn’t even blink.

“Excuse me,” Haley said politely, “I’m afraid there’s been a misunderstanding, you see..” but she was stopped by Anna’s frantic yelling.

“There’s a misunderstanding alright, you sons of bitches should just go to hell and never came back!” Anna was almost close on shoving her fist up to the guys nostril but she missed by one tick and hit Haley’s head instead.

“Ouch!” Haley let out a cry. The whole group of men laughed their heart out while Anna tumbled onto the sand and apologizing frantically at Haley

“Oh, so sorry love, I’ve meant to hit the bastard. Hush now.” Haley, pulled Anna up and motioning that she’s ok and turn to the men.

“”Look, there’s only been a slight misunderstanding, and my friends are more than willing to give the spot back but there are no necessary need to be calling them girls sluts and whores. You men wouldn’t like been called gay or fag now would you?” Haley saw the man raising his right eyebrow and a wicked curve form from the corner of his mouth.

“Hell you are right, shouldn’t be a need for that. Might as well just give us our room numbers and let you girls knock on it at night.” The group of men burst with more laughter and Haley couldn’t take any of this nonsensical comments.

“Of course you men are pussy enough to buy us drinks and get us drunk so we would not have to gag while you lot tried to court with us” Haley didn’t know where the energy had came from but she couldn’t take the senile remarks the man had given her friends no matter how drop dead gorgeous he is.

“You want us to court with you?” is all that he replied. Haley felt her face blushed. Her message didn’t get through in fact the men are getting all the wrong ideas. And they were laughing again.

“Let us go, there’s no need to be pissing with these buffoons” Sherry finally said, she was the only logic thinking girl in the group and sometimes Haley would prefer going to her than Anna for support.

All red faces, she and Anna left the most wanted spot along the beach and got themselves cramped in a spot besides a shabby looking trunk still cringing with the men’s laughter in their ears.

Intermission

2009-09-01T11:48:00.003+08:00

Am truly sorry for not updating this wonderful blog A have sweat for..Sorry girl!!

It's just that I've been busy but mostly lazy..but quite enchanted by A's magnificent layout

You go Girl!!!

and that sorta strike me as being an awful lazy bum.. :P

Well..I was thinking of something different to post now..not something bout myself, my life..well it's not as fun as A's and I certainly don't have any heartbeats to be proud of..

:P

Oh well..let's just wait and see..

:)

Pembetulan

2009-08-12T16:40:00.001+08:00

hahaha!!!

I seem to have make a lot of grammatical error down there..ignore them!

:P

Dear Aisyah

2009-08-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

This entry is dedicated especially to my dear friend Miss Aisyah AR who have done such an excellent job in making my blog look amazingly readable now. hehe.. :P

Thank darling..You know I can't do any of this without your help and how I wish I have as much time as you do.. :P But to tell you the truth, I still don't know what are functions of some elements and where the heck do get them from

I despise technology

:P

Love you Darling!!!

Thanks Y'All

2009-08-10T22:03:00.003+08:00

Hello there..

yes, yes..you there..you with that tshirt on..hey, thanks for stopping by..Honestly I've no idea that I have readers apart from Addy and Aisyah..haha..so when A told me some of her friends read my blog I'm not only surprised but excited as well..

meaning I can actually get followers, commenters..and even advertisements..hence, my blog will be as popular as A!! hahahaa...too ambitious I'd say.. :P

So maybe..I'm currently thinking bout adding some settings here and there..so just get ready k?
:)

Hahaa...actually my English is not that good..it's kinda lame coz I'm a very lazy writer to begin with.. :P

So thanks for dropping by and reading these junks I'm writing..will try my best to make it as interesting as possible.. :)

All the Single Ladies Out There, Put Your Hands Up

2009-08-08T08:56:00.002+08:00

Ollaa...

saje gatal nak wat announcement..

Aku dah break ngan lakhnat tu...

Tapi....

Aku akan seksa nyawa dia separuh mati..

Sebab...

Lakhnat tu ade amek harta aku yang paling berharga...

Jadi...

Aku akan pastikan lakhnat tu merana...

Hahahahahaha!!!

p/s: sebenarnye I ni baik orangnya...tp..bila dah dianiaya sampai macam ni sekali, I won't just keep quiet, I stand by my principles..and I'll do whatever it takes to get my revenge..

:)

~silence is killing me~

2009-08-06T11:18:00.002+08:00

Seriously..everytime rase nak marah..

Aku akan senyap je..

Aku xkan cakap pape...

Macam dulu..aku akan luahkan ape yang aku rasa mcm patut di luahkan..

Tapi sekarang..

Aku akan senyap..

Eventhough benda tu sangat bangang n macam sial..

Aku senyap kan aje...

Sebab aku tau..

Bile aku cakap, aku akan marah..

Nanti gaduh..

Endingnya aku jugak xdapat pape...

Tapi macam biasa la..

Bila aku dah senyap macam ni...

Dia ingat aku ok je...

Seriously sekarang ni aku rasa nak maki hamun je...

Sangat banyak perkataan jahat yang nak kuar ni...

Tapi aku nak senyap jela..

Nangis sorang2 je la kot pasni..

Haih..

Aisyah being Exta Rajin

2009-08-04T22:01:00.000+08:00

Thanks dearie for such an award..You're totally AMAZING considering it's your birthday and the only person deserves such awards is you..hehe..

But I guess, You being You, this is how you'd celebrate your anniversary..

So Darling..Thank you so much..

I love you..and misses you badly..

Mmmmuuuaaahhhh!!!!

We are No Longer in Nong Chik

2009-08-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

20 km from the Johor Bahru City Center (sigh)

Twice trip to Shell Petrol station back and forth (double sigh)

A very VERY very long journey from where we used to live.. (I'm gonna miss you Nong Chik!!)

Fall asleep plenty of times before...

Reaching the new home!!!

Omgosh!! From far you could see all the lights from the houses and the surrounding is just amazing!!

I was so excited I ended up snapping picas!!

Not 100% ready but it's on it's way!!!

I'm stayin in the same room as my lil' sis Ayun, and we can't stop planning the furniture arrangements and what not for the room and the whole house!!!

I want a pink and white room...*gleaming

You think it's for the aircond???

You are wrong!!!

It's for the fan!! I was lyk, what?? We have remote controlled Fan???

I was soo jakun!!

And yes, we are HAPPY!!!!

Oh I just can't wait to move in....!!!!

p/s: But I'll be bck to melaka soon and won't be able to help out with the whole she-bang..hoping that my mum and lil sis will make it through..*teary..

As if You're Thinking of ME

2009-07-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

Rasa macam nak mati....

Sebab sangat bosan...!!!!

Credit dah habis..

Gaduh plak tu ngn Booboo aku...

Entah2 die xnak cakap lagi dgn aku....

Kalo ye pun ckp la sumtin...

Ni senyap je...

KENAPA??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually aku tau kenapa....

Memang salah aku...

Tapi cakap la sumting!!!!!

Haih....

SelectYourStar..

2009-07-28T15:22:00.000+08:00

Handsomenye.......

wujudkah org mcm die ni kt m'sia???

Ade rupe mcm bf sy x......?

Yang ni mmg sah wujud kt m'sia....

And He's MINE!!!!

*droooolsss

tripTRIPtrip!!!!

2009-07-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

Dengan nekadnye..aku beli tiket ke Changloon Kedah..buat pertama kalinye aku akan travel sejauh beratus kilometer seorang diri..

Rasa sangat awkward..tapi aku nak cube pengalaman baru..

Plus point= A will be there!!!

Aku nak enjoy and be happy..sebelum segala macam masalah akan datang..hoho!!
Wish me luck and lots of fun!!!

p/s: Boo..eventhough you wont be reading this..I just want you to know, no matter what, I wanna be with you..

Demons lurking

2009-06-27T03:10:00.000+08:00

Have you been in a long bus trip taking you from the south part of Peninsular Malaysia up to the north? And worst of all, you are seated at the very end of the bus where there’s an empty seat behind you for any co-drivers on the bus.

And there’s that co-driver seating behind you.

The demon that lurks when you’ve fallen asleep. A demon with wandering hands that lusts for you.

That particular son of a bitch seated behind you.

I’m sure A would explain deeply how she felt throughout the journey. As a friend, i felt her wrath and i swear if that ever happens to me, the demon won’t live to tell his journey anywhere.

She was tired, and sleepy, how could any humans (at least disguised as one) raped her out of her rights to feel comfortable throughout her journey. And it’s a tiring one as well!

If man/demons could just keep their hands to themselves, the world would be a better place to live in!

My advice?

- When you feel that you are being harassed in the bus, quickly get up and go
straight to the bus driver and report what had happened.

- If you feel that your comfort and safety had been jeopardized, strictly tell
the driver to either kick the guy out of the bus or put him somewhere faaarr
away from you as possible. Do remember, it’s not just your safety at stake
here, it’s the safety of every other girls in the bus!

- Personally, before i do the above, i’d actually do something to the guy,
give him what he deserves! Drama queen much? Who gives a fuck? You’ve been
harassed! That son of a bitch needs to be taught a lesson! Go kick him or
something, make sure he’ll regret what he have done.

- Lodge a police report! You have every right to do so!

- That demon, that bus, that company, can ALL go to HELL!! And burn as well!

Hope you’ll be alright girlfriend! You one strong woman and i know you’ll
get through this! Jia you!!

UPDATES!updates!UPDATES!

2009-06-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

I am currently updating my blog's layout and stuff (taking A's advice to make it more 'interesting')

So here's a sneak peak of it..

Wait till I'm done uploading this and that to my blog (hope it won't go berserk and bailed on me coz it's so darn full!)

Aite..

I know I love me..

ZOZO

;P

Don't Leave Me!

2009-06-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

A is leaving for UUM today..and I'm a bit gloomy about that fact coz it usually means that holidays are over and everyone's heading back to their respective campuses.

I don't want too..

A has been generous in posting my pics and stories of us going out n having fun together (how I miss that!!) so I find it's only fair that I'd do the same.

Although it's not much from me, but I'm sure it'll sum up to the whole fun time and great moments we both share and laugh together.

I'm gonna miss u like crazy A!! ( singing brit's song You drive Me Crazy just to prove my point)

;P

I Will Be..

2009-06-21T23:14:00.000+08:00

Artist : Leona Lewis
: I Will Be :
There’s nothing I can say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain the tears I cry

Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go

I know I let you down but its not like that now

This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life

I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I thought that I had every thing

I didn’t know what life could bring

But now I see honestly

You’re the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe cause your here with me

And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around

Cause I would never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t breathe

I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave

You’re all I gotYou’re all I want

Yeah

And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do

I could never ever live a day with out you

Here with me do you see your all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life) I will be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Always...

2009-06-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

The new fountain as our background

During a debate tournament

Trying a new restaurant

Him all the way..

.........

I miss you..

sigh

Leadership Skill From A

2009-06-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

Went out with A today, and as usual, there were a lot of things that we have talked about. Remember how I used to fret whenever new semester starts? Well, somehow, after talking to A, I just can’t wait to get it started. To watch some new drama in my course, to hear some new gossips, to witness some new speculations in the org committee. Somehow, I just can’t wait.

All this while I’ve been pushed aside, manipulated, screwed up, bitched about and plenty more (aren’t u guys tired of making me the headline every single time??) and somehow or rather, I’ve let that happened again and again and again. I’ve let people cut me halfway during my speech, I’ve been too soft spoken and too self-conscious about what people might think of my English/Grammar that I was so afraid to voice out my opinion (attributed to those who always think they are the smart-ass in any org.) I’ve never confronted anyone who says anything bad about me, didn’t even bother proving to them that I’m way better than what they think of me and always snap on the spot. Hence, I was always known as someone emotional, uncontrollable, unmanageable, and not trustworthy. I’m more than that, I know it, but I’ve never bother to prove it because of those people perceptions towards me. It bothers me, and I always tell them it didn’t because in a way, I let my anger out on my beloved bf. He’s the place I throw tantrum at, the one I always depend upon (I used to be soo independent) and even forced to accompany me all the time because I was soo afraid of being alone. Despite all the pressure I’ve given him, he’s always right by my side. I appreciate that.

A said, we must start our day with a smile. Gosh, she knows me too well. She probably know I’ve always frown when I enters the class, always unhappy when I go to meetings, never satisfied over what I’ve got or received, always fret over small things, and always depressed over silly things. She said, a smile can brighten anyone’s life, including mine, she said it doesn’t have to be one u fake or put on every single second, I can just smile when I bumped to someone, smile when I enters classes or meetings, smile even when I have some issue going on. Just smile, and think of ways to get through the problem. She told me a good leader is someone who is strict, not painfully straightforward. She knows I can be blunt at times, like when I see a fat girl I could just point at her and say out loud she’s fat and that clothe don’t suit her. A told me if I wanna do that, talk with the other half of me (there are always two half of u, one who is always negative and one who is always positive, and always make them ur bff when you’re far from a real one) but be strict when it comes to important things, strict, serious, straightforward but always smile. Sarcasm kills ur enemies, ur smile is like a weapon that could tear them apart. To make someone listen and respect u, u must respect them, make them fear u and love u at the same time. That’s how the work will be done quickly. If u feel they still cannot be depend upon, do what u think is necessary, and remember to take credit from it, don’t let people use ur energy and shove u aside, u deserve whatever goodness/ benefit a certain project offers, share them with ur subordinates, thank them for their hardwork, whatever problem that happened during the duration of the program, confront it there n then, don’t badmouth or talk about it again when all is settled. Remember to always thank ur org committee (really, u can’t do everything urself, they must’ve done something as well) and whatever dissatisfaction or after effect, talk to them personally, trust me on this one, it really helps and work!

No matter how busy I am, my studies are my priority, I must always attend classes no matter how late I get. Don’t worry bout not getting any group or partner to work with. Relax, go and meet your lecturer, tell him or her u dun have a group or pair, even if u have to do it individually, just DO IT!! Because at the end of the day, it’s still individual markings. It’s your effort, your mark. No matter how busy, how tired, find the time to make sure my studies are on track. A leader is someone who can show to the world that he is not just into managerial or administrable works, but he is also no idiot to be messed with. Knowledge is the best quality in life. A man is not a man unless he has knowledge in him (applies to women as well ).

I have a problem where I like to speak my mind when it’s not necessary and the words that come out are harsh and hurts the ears. A said being outspoken is not by being blunt x tentu pasal. No cursing. Like i said, she knows me too well. A’s advice? Talk to ur other half (urself). Try to relax when u explain things, but be very clear and make sure people gets u. If u can’t find words to describe sumting, use pauses or expressions instead. Not only will people be laughing because u look funny, but u’l make urself understood as well. If u think that people are annoyed by ur medium of speaking in meetings which is English, try using BM instead. Not only will u sound polite, ull make urself clear. Remember how I used to speak really fast during my school years? Apply that now as well. I’ll make myself clear, straightforward, fast and understood.

A’s such a great leader that I wish I’m her subordinate because there’s no one else in this world that could really understand how she works and enjoy following that flow. But since I’m far from her and I’ll be dealing with people who has the same characters but different faces and sounds, I’ll have to be more confident with myself, make myself proud, make people respect me and make myself clear and understood.

I can’t wait to get the new semester going. My classes, debate club, students’ council. I’ll prove to them I’m more than what they think of me off. I’ll smile away their negative perceptions toward me and I’ll just do my job, my studies perfectly, using my flow, my management.

I am pretty, so what?

I am powerful, so what?

I can move around by myself, so what?

I have a sweet bf, so what?

Being respected is not by talking or using harsh words in dealing with problems, being respected is about how mature ur thinking and how u use it to the most ultimate in solving problems. Also, being respected is by showing to people, no matter how bad the storm, i’ll smile it away.

Commandments of Marriage

2009-06-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

Commandments 1 - 10
Commandment 1

Marriages are made in heaven
But then again, so is thunder and lightning.
Commandment 2
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say,
Talk in your sleep.
Commandment 3
Marriage is grand - and divorce is at least a 100 grand!
Commandment 4
Married life is very frustrating.
In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens.
In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.
In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.
Commandment 5
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing:
Either the car is new or the wife is.
Commandment 6
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one;
The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.
Commandment 7
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you said.
After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.
Commandment 8
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook.
But the law allows only one wife.
Commandment 9
Marriage and love are purely a matter of chemistry.
That is why one treats the other like toxic waste.
Commandment 10
A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished.

Bonus Commandment Story
A long married couple came upon a wishing well.
The wife leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny.
The husband decided to make a wish too.
But he leaned over too much, fell into the well, and drowned.
The wife was stunned for a moment,
But then smiled,
“It really works!”

Chapter 3 of Love Management

2009-05-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

Actually, I've got sooo many to update in this post. But I shall start with something that is really important especially for the girls.

How to identify perverts?

1. You met them on the internet,probably on facebook, myspace, friendster and what not.

2. They start asking for your mobile number and once you gave it to them, (Hell, you shouldn't!) they start sms-ing and calling you till the early morning.

3. They waited till the right moment for you to open up yourself to them; your relationship status, your views on relationship, what you think of men, your sexual preferences and why you choose to be so.

4. Not to mention the constant 'can you send me your picture via mms?' every 10 seconds.

5. Hah! Then comes the moment when he starts talking bout his sexs past. And then encouraging you to arouse them. (F**k those men!)

6. Finally, all they could talk about to you is sex and fore play. OK I think by now you should know NOT to meet these guys.

7. Still, if you meet them outside of the virtual world, they'll take every chances they can get to lay their hands on you. (NEVER let them!! Else they will think that you are just like those cheap worn out cardigan you'll buy in the garage sale.

8. Worst, you'll hear something like this from them "Oh, I do have a gf, but I'm never gonna touch her, cause I'm planning on marrying her" and they say this with that plastic genuine smile on their face. And you probably be wandering, "Then WTF am I???"

By right girls, you should know when to put on that thinking caps and be careful.

Chapter 1 of Friendship Management

2009-05-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

So, I called my best girlfriend in the whole wide world today. We talked for quite awhile. Was asking her what she has been doing at the moment. And she respond by saying a new cool AMAZING novel is on ze way!!!

I LOVE HER STORIES!!!

She's an amazing, funny, drop dead hilarious writer I've ever known. All her novels/short stories/comics are not exactly award winning type but they won my attention every single time. Imagine, she could actually came up with an action packed novel with a comic twist when we were in our Form 6. The novel's called ZUIKO (God knows what it actually means in Japan) but we believed in our fictioned-made up-creepy-but-cute-little-world that it means the power of Fire, Water and Wind.

Hilarious isn't it?

And now she's coming up with a new chick flick romance novel. I can't wait!

Always have and will always love her writings.

Makes me wish I could write my own stories as well. Well, I wrote a few before but could never get around to finishing them.

Maybe I should.

Right now, I just want to read hers. So Sya, keep up the good work. I love you girl!!! :)

Chapter 2 of Love Management

2009-05-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

Facebooks, Friendsters,MySpace and what not. All this are ways for everyone to communicate with friends and weirdly,family. People log in on these stuff and find themself unable to log off again. They'll be going online for hours to reply those comments/messages, udate those profiles and upload some cool, weird and absurd pictures they have taken recently. Some would add friends that they are familiar with only or people they have never met in their life. That's the fun of it. You get to meet new people, people whom you could actually meet on the streets but never been bothered to say 'hi' to.
And most amazingly, these are the perfect place for people to find LOVE or loose them.

OK. Let me just cut to the chase. For people who are already in a relationship. They'd probably be wondering the first time they created a profile on any of these 'portals', "Am I going to be honest about my relationship status or should I just left it blank? But what if my partner finds out about it and got upset?" It's so typical right? Some would actually agree on telling the truth, and some would actually encourage you to just ignore that relationship status and leave it blank. Hell, even if your partner finds out, what is the least he/she can do? Probably just sulk and not talk to you for a night. That gives you more chance to mingle around in the portal right?
SHIT!
What I think is just like what any other 'in a relationship' status girls would. Just admit that you are in a relationship. What's wrong with letting your friends know bout your gf? Or what's wrong with changing 'single' to 'in a relationship'? All you need to do is just click on a stupid button.

I know, I know, I shoudn't be making a HUGE fuss out of this.

But please, it's bad enough that you never actually show any affections towards your gf in FB or FS for that matter, you didn't even change your status. Hence you're letting all your friends think that you are single. It's as if saying "Hey, look at me, I've got no gf. I'm absolutely available. Add me as a friend!".

Sigh.

Thinking positively....Got it!

Fine, if that's the game you're playing, than I can play better. I'll talk to you about it when you are free. If I'm still not getting any response nor changes, I'll just do the same to you. HELL, I've got more admirers than you know. Online at least. Hah! See if you can top that.

OK. I'm feeling much much better now. Shouldn't pick a fight over something so small like this. Nothing that we cannot settle as an adult. Let's talk then.

Chapter 1 of Anger Management

2009-05-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

NEVER, I repeat, NEVER drive when you don't feel like it. When you just want to lie down and read that goood Sophie Kinsella gurly girl book, and you just want to dream about what you will be having for dinner tonight or what will you do if suddenly the whole world is going to explodes, DON'T DRIVE!
I almost hit a car while reversed.
Almost yell at my mum to shut up when she squicks and shrieks at my driving.
Almost call this parking guy 'AN ASSHOLE' for signalling it's OK not to get the parking ticket but then stop me abruptly and ask for the parking money. Hence almost made me hit the divider.
Sigh..
But all went well I think. I've had a couple of 'almost-hitting-something-but-never-actually-hit-them' series before this. I can still manage, I hope (crossing my fingers).
So I took a couple of very VERY very deep breath. Apologize to my mum. Drove a bit better and relaxed and got home safe and sound.
Yiaaakkkss!!
I just remembered, I'm supposed to convince my mum that my driving isn't so bad so she would buy me a car.
Crap.
I hope I didn't blew off my chances.
Crap.

Trip To Melaka

2009-05-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

Went to Melaka on Friday.

Had planned on going since Monday.

Surprised him.

Hell he was surprised! :)

Thought he was dreaming.

Couldn't let go of me.

In Love with him again.

And I got him back.

This time, I'm gonna keep it that way.

I Love You Boo..

Chapter 1 of Love Management

2009-04-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

The 'Watch Out', 'Must Not Do' and 'Must Do' things in a relationship (especially for girls)

1. Never go out with another guy unless it's formal.

2. Even when you do (the above) KNOWS your limits; holdings hands, huggings, kissing more than you should have offered are STRICTLY prohibited.

3. The cliche "What mama don't know won't hurt her" should be flushed down the toilet. You did nothing wrong, don't be afraid to say it.

4. Don't stop him or threaten him or hurt him physically when he says "Honey, I'm off to play futsal". Either you supports him or make a team of your own and play that goddamn ball!

5. If he refuses to stay at your place for some reasons, take a deep breath, wash your face, call him and tell him you'll miss him but NEVER send vulgar messages and hurt him verbally with your nonsense accusations!

6. You know he's indisicive. You've invited him out for shopping. You know he can never give the right comment you'll be looking for, just remember, that to him, anything looks great on you. So DON'T sulk. Put the clothes down, kiss him on the cheecks and take the clothes back. Try them. Decide for yourself. Show him how you look in those garments. Kiss him again and tell him which one you've decided to buy.

7. "He's so picky!" Just remember, you have your fair share of 'unlikes' in your life. If he can be patient about it why can't you? Relax, it's just another way for you to learn about him better.

8. Whenever the date is on, you'll look your absolute best, and he's well, plain simple; unshave beard, wrinkled shirt, seasoned pants ( I know, it's unlikely to show off to the world) but just look at that beautiful smile of him. The smile he gives only and especially to you. I think it's good enough to be flashed around for the world to see.. :)

9. He doesn't have much money, works during the weekend, busy with sports every other thursday and there's that movie you've longing to watch. So call him up, ask him when can we have another date together, say it's on you but next time he's paying (eventhough that's gonna be in awhile), and if he disagree politely ask him if you can ask your bestfriend to bring you (and make sure it's a girl! It can be a boy, but let it be someone your bf is more comfortable with). If he says OK, then go. Have fun. And bring back something for him to let him know that you appreciate him. You are happy, so make him happy as well.

10. Anniversaries...Who doesn't want to celebrate right. But celebrating doesn't have to be in a grand hotel or restaurants. He might've wanted to make something special out of it, but perhaps his accounts doesn't allow him too. So, if you feel like doing something special, so make it special. You put an effort on him and not bug him to. He may have only call you and wish you "Happy Anniversary Dear", but it's up to you to make it even more special. Call him up,a kiss on the cheeck, cook/bake for him or for those who don't cook or staying sumwhere that doesn't allow you to cook; go out for a nice quiet dinner together (it can also be sumwhere you have regularly been to or sumwhere you have never been to, that can be quite adventurous and Romantic!)

11. You've been together for so long. Never once did you received a single stalk of flower. Not even on your anniversaries, your birthdays or any other special occasions. Relax, he may not be romantic, but look at him, flashback on what he has done for you, now tell me, who else is willing to buy you food when you're hungry, take care of you when you are sad and even accompany you when he's feeling sooo tired? Those are more than just a bouquet of flowers per day.

12. When you are upset, or feeling down, or angry at someone. DON'T call him up and bitch about that person. Go home, relax, drink some water. STRATEGIZE. Then call him. Ask for his opinion in a very relax manner. DON'T go scolding him, it's NOT his fault, in fact, he may be the right person to help you out. Thank him afterwards.

13. When you are arguing, on something that may not be arguable to begin with, remember, I have lost this man so many times in my life, I know how hard it is to let him go, now I have him, should i risk losing him again just because I FEEL like arguing. STOP! STOP ARGUING. Call him or text him or meet him, hug him, apologize and go to sleep! Sleep is one way to release your stress. DO THAT! Then when you wake up the next day, give him your most beautiful smile. And be happy again.

14. Sex is not the most important thing in relationship. He may not perform well or it may be you who asks for too much. But he's yours. His body, heart and mind are all yours. So be contend with that. He may have love you not for your physical attractiveness, so attract him with ur care, love and intelligence. It'll make the relationship so much better.

15. You may feel insecure, you may feel as if someone likes him or adores him, Hell who doesn't? He's the perfect gentlemen and he has so much love to give and he chose to give them to you. So why bother? He's with you, loving you, caring for you, so STOP your insecurities and love him back the same. Others can go to hell!

(If I have done all of the above, I may still have him with me right now)

So trust me, these are just about the things you need to do in a relationship. Don't risk it.

The Start

2009-04-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

Let's do this in the third person p.o.v shall we?

"Hayati have been told many times that she need to manage her life better, but she almost always refuses to listen. With thatm she has lost many. She lost the love of her life (although they agreed on trying to work it out, she knows she's only holding on to a very thin thread), she might lost a lot of her pointers in her studies, she might also lost her position in the Student Leader Council as well as in the Debating Unit. Worst, she might just loose herself.

So as she watched the moon one night, tears filling her eyes, she catches the glimpse of what she might have been if all this didn't happen. She might have become someone respected, she might gain that DL again, and even better, maybe, just maybe, still be with that someone she loves dearly. So she decided, "Hye, this is crazy. I have so many to offer to the world, I just dunno how to" and quickly think of ways to deal with things. Suddenly she remembered a friend of hers. He asked her before how she let out her problems, she claimed she had friends she could share it with, but realizes, thats it that she have.

"I need to do something" she announced in her heart

So she sat down in front of her pearly white lappie and goes online. She read her bestfriend's blog and realized how far she has developed since her first entry. "Maybe this is all I need"

Hayati clicked on "create your own blog" link and thus her journey as a blogger begun.

She will talk about her life journey, how things changes, how she will manage her anger especially, how she could develop as a human being and as a woman with dignity especially.

She will talk about her love and how she misses him.

She will talk of his beauty, his charms, and his love for her that had gone missing.

She will be someone new for herself..and for her future..

Hence, this blog. It's going to be a bit personal, maybe with little fun inside. Who knows, we'll just have to see what Hayati have in mind.